3rd day in CNS block.

hmm when did i start to become so lazy to update xg

playing blue bk chasing lecture game. but blue bk yao not enough. yee ho farn. why cant medic textbks be more organized and 'correct'? totally not student friendly lor ><

ai

why i always suddenly feel a sense of sadness and emptyness these days? weird. jesus plssss  fai d fill my heart with joy and energy!

coming sun yao yiu go annual parade. dim chase lectures! and how come i am going to be SC again? haha im not doing gd enough anyway..shd be someone else's turn..the 4th yr? now its like reflex ==

ai how come i love marching (haha ho bin tai) and makes me want to take that drill instructor course so much == but no time wor. afford ng hei... ai suen la suen la i shd repeatly tell myself that i should study more becuz im a medic student...

anyway thking of mock osca makes me excited :)
thking of 1218 OP and xmas celebration and even xmas holiday and chou book day camp all makes me feel good :D

haha little things always give u happiness. wahahahaha. going to QM lunch is such a great thg. today even have bonus! hahahahahaaaaaaaaaa ho ho play ho jeng a =DDDDDDDD

and peraps i still want to slp more ==

back form 球季生活營. so slppy now =w=

finally full camp this yr :) the games r not as harsh as expected haha

sermon n harp n bowl. nice :) keep burning...

didnt hv a very big thing like last yr's...but have a few small 'things' in my mind...seems stirring and not concrete? hmmm need some time need some time

haha joint cell in a team. haahahahaha many laughters XD

make clothes. it seems our team super bok chun @@. haha sewing till 3am and i think i can be surgeon at that time XPPPP

and i super like this 皇袍 XDDDD hahahaahahahaaaaaaaaaaaa *unconditional <3*

nice time w/ dear cellmates :)))))))) love u all

anyway too tired to type more...still hv to prep ssgg's L n prac ><

an originally 'day off' for me, but i was so busy that i did 2 things today

haha. 1st thg. finally went see dr again, for my back pain thg. == requested for an xray. and planned to hv a bit physiotherapy again...

well...i dunno a. god pls heal me ><

haha being a patient there ho sun k. no young ppl around cuz it was mon morning. haha then everyone looks at me so weirdly :P

anyway all things done in 2 hrs. ho chi do clin visit observe things there gum xDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

then 2nd thg - finally did my CVP-GP visit today

so near in cwb :D so gd. haha my GP tutor is too special cuz he is an OG specialist at the same time.

i never thk of anythg special until I WALK IN THE CLINIC. everyone inside looked at me so weirdly and suspiciously. haha they must be thinking wt is this girl doing here. i even thk 1 of the woman there wants to look at my belly. well. i should seriously consider reduce some fat...they might be thinking that this girl must did sth wrong so she has to come for an abortion XD

anyway. i went in 1st when i dr came back. talked a bit, introduction. then he asked the 1st patient to come in....haha she was like...有人 wor...then the nurse said have another dr xD and the dr introduce me as dr.wong lor @@ from hku. haha sounds so pro =P

then i sat there for 4 consultations! all OG ones. antenatal checkups.

2/4 were mainland mothers...1 is even going to be cut and give birth to the baby tmr! @@ and the mainland mothers reli very different as comapred to hk mothers. haha. 1 even want to choose a 'gud si' to do the OT @@ reli gyhg...== and they want baby boys much more gum lor== so mo loi...

i witnessed 4 different ultrasound! looking at the tiny little lives there...at different stages. haha so cute :D:D:D

anyway. very nice experience =D

then after all 4 mothers gone then the dr talks with me about those healthe care system thg. haha and he loves chinese drawings lor i so wanna tell him about that i know these too xD hahahahaha anyway. he even also talk about chin n westerm medicine..and healthcare settings a GP settings in australia and big cities a...ok long gas but he's reli very kind =DDDDDD

this GP visit is so gd! haha i thk it must b a lot better than going to GOPC...

woah this is becoming biweekly. haha

國慶. 看閱兵很興奮卻也很矛盾. 中國要走的路實在還多著呢

UG block is coming to an end. @@. seems i didn't work really hard. ai. start to fold more lib. i find my self-control and discipline is worsen. == cant focus at home in normal school days...==

had interyear fellowship camp last week. hmm. well very similar ideas coming out again and again. dear lord pls guide us

cell is starting this sat :):):) ho k doi! add oil XD

ms is starting next week. hopefully a less chur block....and hopefully i can work harder. time flies

2 weeks of sch

got back result slip of summative last yr. haha. not good. tho expected. wanna work much harder...and i feel that i HAVE TO. not for gd results. not for a nice quartile 1 on the slip. not for scholarships (well actually i knw they r not for me. lol) but i seriously know that im too ignorant for becoming a dr. and im sure if im still like this this year. and IF i passed. i will still die in year 3. >< ho ng dim.

ok i once (or more) told myself. when i got back my (bad) results (which i knw it will certainly happen) then i'll start quitting thgs. haha. actually they r all guides stuff left in my life. division, district, ranger, coy. well i've been sinking already, but quitting is a different story. well i know i would hv to quite them anyway after yr 2, but now seriously i know I HAVE TO quit them. NOW. asap. or well, mayb for a little while more. haa. too reluctant to QUIT thgs that u've been involving for nearly a decade

poritize my life. i hv to make choices. made a decision to spend more time on it. well. im not sure if im that capable. but. well. i feel that this is a right choice.

anyway

year 2 is starting. err. quite OK. except UG is too chur as a start. hahahaha. and im way too lazy and stupid for doing gd in this crazy block and among my fellow clever and bork jun classmates

im sure im sleeping too much. like around 7 hrs per day last yr. (its even more than wt i had in secondary sch! chi sin) but i dunno y i always feel so slppy and i cant stand that sleepiness as before...am i getting too old? but my mum is sleeping less. well this feeling sucks and i suck. i just hope i can tune my bioclock and SLEEP LESS

on the other hand i dont want to use coffee. yes. not DRINK. but USE. seriously it gonna do some harm. and i dont want to become resistant to caffeine so soon (yea. like someone who can slp right after drinking double shots. hahahaha. chi sin ga)

chasing lectures is a never ending story........so pathetic. i've never heard students from other curriculum using the term 'chase lecture' or 'ching lecture'. ohlalala i know this is so medic. haha

currently seriously worried about some friends. dears. i dun want u guys to get hurt or sick or regret or churred bao or feel so sad and grey and wteva. (ok i knw im feeling bad these days anyway. cho sai dai). im sure god will look after us all. i shall wrap my life with prayers.

random thots r over. back to work.
and gd luck to health ex :)